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Billyeah
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Posted: Sat Aug 27th, 2005 04:23 pm |
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Hello everyone how are you all? In my attempt to fight through my sexual addiction I have fallen too many times to count. Then God led me to your site. I did a bit of browsing and decided to become a member. I hope I can get to know some of you and possible help and be helped.
God Bless you all and we will talk more soon
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Posted: Wed Aug 31st, 2005 03:32 pm |
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Billy, welcome!
I guess I'm a "regular" here. I'm nearing the one-year mark of successful recovery from sexual addiction. What do you need help with the most? How can I or anyone else encourage you?
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Billyeah
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Posted: Wed Aug 31st, 2005 04:43 pm |
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I guess my biggest problem is that I don't feel guilty enough anymore. The more I viewed it the harder my heart has become. I really want to feel disgusted when I view an image that is not of God. I have gotten better as of late. it has been about a week since I have last viewed pornograph and about three weeks since I masturbated as a result of porn, and I am asking Jesus to take over my life, and things have been getting better. Still I could always use help wherever I can Get it.
Thanx
Bill
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Posted: Wed Aug 31st, 2005 05:01 pm |
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Bill,
Thanks for the update!
Question: Have you considered joining some kind of group? Either an accountability group, a therapy-based group or an SA group? It's going to be so important that you not do this alone and that you're in a community of others who are working towards freedom. What do you think?
-Steve
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Billyeah
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Posted: Wed Aug 31st, 2005 06:09 pm |
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That's why I am here. This isn't something i can talk to people about around here. I live in a very backwoods sort of comunity where this thing is always swept under a rug. I don't want to be a coward and I understand how an accountability would be a great tool but unfortunately that isn't possible for me. People around here don't understand. I couldn't find someone who wouldn't judge me. I guess it's up to you guys to help me.
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Bill
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Posted: Wed Aug 31st, 2005 06:10 pm |
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Now that I am here I don't feel alone anymore.
Thanx
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Posted: Wed Oct 12th, 2005 01:15 am |
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Well Billy, I'm certainly glad you're with us.
Just an idea and you're welcome to shoot it down: I do know of therapists and Christian counseling ministries that specialize in sexual addiction and do a lot of telephone counseling. That might be an option for you. The way I see it, these forums are quite helpful and encouraging, but it doesn't beat talking to a real person who understands, has been there himself and knows how to help you. Know what I mean?
Anyway again, I'm glad you're here. Please be encouraged and let us know how we can help!
-Steve
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Posted: Fri Oct 14th, 2005 05:24 pm |
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| Just some random thoughts. As I was reading the glimpse of your story, it sounded very familiar as it is very close to my own. I got so deep into fantasy world that it seemed more real than reality. The guilt was pretty silent as masturbation and pornography became the norm rather than the exception. I still knew deep down that it was wrong, but it was covered with so much shame that it couldn't be felt. My conscience was very much nonexistent until I began opening up my deepest, darkest, ugliest secrets to safe people who were accepting and grateful. While that first step was the scariest, it was the most important. Today, the more I share my struggles with people the healthier and more real I feel. Allowing the light into those deep hidden spaces, didn't kill me or press me to further humility, it actually strengthened me and pressed me further down the recovery path.
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Billyeah
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Posted: Wed May 24th, 2006 10:12 pm |
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Wow it is amazing to think of how far the Lord has taken me since my first post here. All who are involved in this site, and those who have encouraged me in the past, God Bless you and thank you. I am not where I want to be yet, but I don't anyone will ever be where we want to be, as God always wants us to grow. But I have come a long way. I have been clean, like totally clean, for at least a month now, and love every second of it. Blazing Grace was God's tool to bring me to genuine repentance of my sin.
Thanks again!
God Bless
Bill
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Posted: Wed May 24th, 2006 10:20 pm |
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Bill, this is fantastic to hear. Praise the Lord for what's He's doing in your life! 
-Steve
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Billyeah
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Posted: Wed May 24th, 2006 11:55 pm |
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Praise him indeed. It's a great feeling. I am so happy he has done what he has done for me. It no longer feels like I can't help other people because I have this dark cloud hanging over me. I feel like I can actually be useful to the body of Christ, and no longer a hypocrite. I will never take my eye's off Jesus.
God Bless
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