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doug_in_Cali
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Posted: Wed Mar 5th, 2008 05:12 pm |
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Hey all. I'm new here & just wanted to ask you all to pray for me as I try to recover from my porn addiction. I started, like many, by looking at my dad's Playboy. By the time I was in college, I was calling phone sex lines and buying movies. It only got worse when I discovered the internet.
Fortunately, in 2004 I was saved & baptized into my new life as a follower of Jesus. I destroyed all my videos, trashed my old computer, and threw out every piece of questionable material I had. I thought Jesus had made me 'bulletproof' to this sin. How naive!!
My recent troubles started innocently enough. A superior at work included me in the group of people to whom he would e-mail dirty jokes and racy pictures. Mistake #1: I didn't stand up right away and confront this. I started to look at the pictures which, over time, became more lurid. That led me back to the internet. Pretty soon I was sliding back into old habits.
At the same time, my wife was in the middle of a tough pregnancy. She was restricted from sexual activity. Even after the baby came, it would be several months before we could make love. I justified my behavior by the fact that I wasn't "getting any" at home.
I think I'm fortunate that God called me to look for help and I stumbled onto Blazing Grace. I've downloaded the accountability software and am now just searching for prayer and support as I try to stop myself before I tumble over the edge.
Thanks!
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Paulos
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Posted: Wed Mar 5th, 2008 10:35 pm |
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Hello, doug_in_Cali.
I will pray for you. You seem to be aware of how rationalization can buttress choices that really are indefensible before God, and to be taking helpful measures. Ultimately it's before a changed heart that temptation loses force, but internet filters can be a step and a reminder. A person who has once been in bondage to lust is never immune from slipping back. The power of Jesus becomes manifest precisely in our constant striving for chastity, and is not a platform from which we can ever be safe dallying again with what we have left behind. With evil there can be no peace.
I identify with your anguish over a period of abstinence you didn't choose during the difficult pregnancy. There's some comfort in the fact that this sort of experience is by no means rare. Even in marriage there are numerous factors that can suspend sexual activity for a time, sometimes an extended time. So we can't do without a basic level of self-control. Those of us who never learned it before marriage have to learn it as we go.
Blessings on you.
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Posted: Wed Mar 5th, 2008 10:52 pm |
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Welcome Doug_in_Cali. Blazing Grace has a lot of good articles as well as an active forum. I hope you find help here.
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Posted: Fri Mar 7th, 2008 04:55 pm |
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Welcome, doug,
Welcome and good job for taking the step to start posting here.
Christian love and prayers,
Journey
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sam
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Posted: Fri Mar 7th, 2008 05:40 pm |
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hi doug,
i will absolutely be in prayer for you & your family.
bless you,
sam
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