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Quentin
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Posted: Sat Nov 19th, 2005 07:08 am |
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As I was reading tonight....I read my Bible, and then I read part of "Every Man's Challenge"....The Lord again revealed to me another tidbit of how I fell.
God is very good in how he does business with me! He doesnt overload me. He gives me one step at a time.
I recall a very dreamy night. Me and my girlfriend at the time...it was this past summer. We were in my back yard...by this nice creek....with a lamp in a tree ( it was night time ), we were reading together. We were reading the book "Purpose Driven Life". A fantastic book really. We read a chapter on how many times our past, and how it has shaped us...prepares us for a greater purpose.
I prayed about what I read. The Lord revealed to me that I needed to go to the younger generation and reveal to them the dangers of pornography. Since the age of 8 my life was filled with pornography, until a little over a year ago. Ofcourse more recently I fell.
But I realized this purpose, and I was ready to fight this fight. But as a christian my greatest adversary is the Devil. The Devil seeks to destroy, and in this case he obviously didnt want this new purpose to come about. After that night I had the worst temptations in the world to look at pornography. I fought it constantly...it was draining though. I was set....I would not do that to my girlfriend...I would remain loyal. I would not sin...I knew its darkness...I knew its trap. I knew that with one look.....it would all be over...I was then start to fall again. But then one night...I remember...I typed in a site...and I pushed enter...then I fell.
The Devil scored 3 for 1 by my weakness. He stole my life, my girlfriends, and a ministry about to be born.
Through the power of Christ mine is almost restored, and this ministry will come about in God's timing. My ex-girlfriend now....she is very hurt....and I pray that in time the Lord will rescue her from what she is comfronted with.
I hope and pray everything will be restored...nothing is beyond God.
- David
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