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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 12:29 am |
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More to this than I'll share here, but I'm losing hope in everything, and sinking fast... Maybe tomorrow will be better, but any prayers needed and appreciated...
The "fantasy solution" is beckoning and the 'pull' getting strong... Need some help...
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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 12:53 am |
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| Praying! Meditate on how far you've came thus far ... there are always silver linings to be found! This is just an attack, a test of your emergency broadcast system ... hang in there!
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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 02:05 am |
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Gaylon,
Are there people you can talk with in real life? Just laying our troubles out to someone else can often make a huge difference. Also as I, ah, read somewhere, God, the compassionate, the caring is closer to us than our jugular vein.
You've been a thoughtful and consistent and inspiring voice here, Gaylon. I hope you find your way through your current troubles. If there are things you do want to share further, too, I hope you'll find ways to do that, either here or in person at home.
Let me add a bit, too. At moments like this, I try to find some calm center within myself and to pray simply and honestly to God. I remind God and myself that I am His servant, His to use in any way He may choose. I confess honestly that 40 years of my life shows that the pull of addictive temptations is stronger than I, that I do not have power over my addiction. God may do with me as God wills - I am His to use or to throw away - but I again assert that I desire to serve God, to love others. I will do this better if God will take from me the desires that I can't resist. I hope He'll do that, but I will serve Him as I must however He may chose to handle my addiction.
I'm not saying this well, but for me, turning the issue over to God and then trying to proceed in the conviction that I have done all I can and that God will lift the temptation or not as God wills is a central piece of my spiritual life, and of my response to addictive desires. If I make it into a fight of wills, I lose. But if I surrender and let God act, really believing that God is my only hope, then God has acted for me in love and in care to gie me the tools to be His servant. My job is not to fight. It's to turn the problem over to God, offering to serve Him if I have the tools, and then to act in faith that God will act. From me, it's a turning aside from temptation, stepping back from it and letting God carry it, rather than a battle with temptation.
The Big Book says this much better than I, and for me, it has worked often.
Do well, Gaylon. You're a blessing here.
Tim M.
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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 05:27 am |
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Hi Gaylon,
Please remember that our hope is not in every thing, but in the Creator of everything. Our hope is in the Lord, our high priest who is able to sympathize with our weaknesses, making it possible to approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. (Somewhat paraphrased from Hebrews 4:15-6.) Please remember also that nothing that happens in your earthly life can separate you from God's love. Romans 8.
Heavenly Father, I lift Gaylon up to you at this critical time of need, and ask that you undergird him, guard him from the enemy, and encourage him with the hope that can only come from Your love. May he pour his heart out to You, and perhaps find a sympathetic earthly ear, combined with lips that would speak Your wisdom in this situation. Amen.
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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 08:59 pm |
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Gaylon,
I am fairly new here, but have always been impressed with your honesty and openness here.
You are certainly an encouraging voice on this board. May we now offer back to YOU words of encouragement and faith.
The valleys? Well, they are there for sure. Please know that people here care about you and are praying for you through this valley.
II Cor 1:3-5 ... sometimes we go through things in order for us to learn to hear the voice of the God of ALL comfort... and then we can offer that comfort to others.
Suzi
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Psa 107:20 He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions.
Luke 6:46 And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?
Psa 119:37 Turn away mine eyes from beholding vanity; and quicken thou me in thy way.
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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 09:47 pm |
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Thanks to each of you. More than you'll know. Or, maybe not, since you've probably felt it, too. I consider you friends, even though we probably will never meet. Shortly after I posted this, I felt a lifting, like a strong hand under me, and thought "I wonder if someone saw this, and prayed for me". I checked, and found Joel2's reply... My wife also told me she was praying for me at that time. And today I have felt relieved and lifted up.
Here's a little of the story: Lately I've made and received a few posts about "feelings" and dealing with them. On Friday, I decided that the feelings were just more than I could deal with, and made a conscious decision to "shut down" my feelings. This turned out to be unwise, to say the least, but I persisted through the weekend and yesterday. The result was, I felt more miserable every passing hour, and by last night (I'm slow on the uptake) I realized that I had opened the door to Satan, and basically said "come on in, have a seat". By the time I posted, I felt that I was slipping into oblivion, and could not stop it. I got physically weaker, and mentally in despair (John 10:10 - steal, kill, destroy). Your prayers, and my wife's, stopped the slide for me. And, if my wife is reading this, I publically apologize to her for the h*ll I put her through last night as Satan raged in my heart, and I said some very oppressive things -- not about her, but about myself and life in general -- that scared her badly.
This has been yet another lesson to me about the terrible reality of the evil one, and the equal reality of the healing and loving power of God and His Son as I yield to Him. And, the great blessing of a wonderful wife, and caring friends... Thanks to you all.
Hopefully I never repeat that mistake again, but I seem to be prone to falling to the evil forces. I'm thankful for patience and prayers of family and friends, and hope I can share the same in return...
--- Gaylon V.
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Posted: Tue Mar 13th, 2007 11:56 pm |
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Hey, Gaylon, you're a highly valued member of the forum and we're praying for you - in earnest - and God hears our prayers. You've helped me a lot so know you're loved and cherished by myself and many here. What you suffered was a spiritual attack and you need all our prayers. Very likely the devil's getting nastier because he can see he's lost the chance of winning you and is trying to get you - without success. That's how it'll stay. You're saved and made completely righteous by the blood of Jesus and you can't make yourself worthy by works. God loves you - you're unique and He really thinks you're special. He also wants you to get over this hurdle because He's got so much more for you after that is accomplished. Stephen
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Posted: Tue Apr 3rd, 2007 06:26 pm |
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Hi, gaylon, I just want to share something with you
I've been reading this book "The Covering--God's plan to protect you from evil" It talks about how the evil one CANNOT possess believers because remember? Jesus said the strong man's house cannot be robbed unless the strong man is tied up first. (not exact wording). In us believers the strong man is God, and who is stronger than He?
It talks about how we shouldnt view devil as some powerful being, he tries to fake that powerfulness. God is the one we should fear. So yeah, yield to God.
We should let God disciple us and put on the armor of God, something the devil tries to strip us of. Let him not enter your mind. the devil cannot harm you because Jesus is your protector. Do not be deceived by the superstitious illusions. I have been struggling with this. Thank God i am set free from it now 
Glad to hear that God has blessed you with a wonderful and supportive family. Blessed are you
God is with us, let us listen to Him and obey Him!
I will continue pray for you guys!
Keep clean!
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tip: when tempted, think of God, think of that special someone you love.
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Posted: Tue Apr 3rd, 2007 10:21 pm |
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G.S. - Thanks -- great thoughts. Your message came at a good time...
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Posted: Wed Apr 4th, 2007 06:43 pm |
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Continuing to keep you in my daily prayers, Gaylon. I think it's a bad time at the moment - coming up to Easter. I do believe in spiritual warfare and we're not just battling against a physical obstacle but thanks be to God, He gives us the spiritual armour to put on and fight. I have reached the tenth day today, struggling with "m" and am not doing very well but fighting tooth and nail. Stephen.
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