I can't help but feel "less than" when I'm around other people. I can't walk with the confidence I once had, I feel like someone has taken a bat to my knees. I feel "less than" for staying, for being with someone who has the capability to bring another woman into the bedroom of our new home, the beautiful home our friends and family were so proud of us getting. For spending his days isolated and viewing porn for 20 years instead of living a full healthy life.
His shame has become mine, all at once. I didn't ask for this. My anger is what gets me through right now. My thoughts of leaving is what is holding my head up and I don't think that is what I should be thinking if I'm trying to work it out. He is trying very hard but I can't help but to carry the same shame just for being with him. I am proud of him for what he has accomplished so far but not enough time has passed to make much of a difference. What can I do for myself to raise my self esteem in this situation?
Last edited on Fri Jan 5th, 2007 09:34 am by Life sucks
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