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Posted: Mon Jan 9th, 2006 09:53 pm |
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God is continuing to work in both my h and I. I'm working on the issue of trust. My prayer is that if there's something I need to see or know, that God will make it clear; otherwise, I need to believe my h when he says he's not "using." I see no physical evidence and, even though there was a time I believed he was a good liar, I realize now that I didn't have the information I needed to see what was going on. Now I can pretty much tell when he's lying (because I'm more sensitive to it) and trying to catch him is just making me crazy. So I've found some peace, and things are going very well. Not perfect, by any means, but so much better than the past year!! I feel like I have my husband back. I'm praying we can learn to communicate better; that he will be open to conversation about unpleasant as well as pleasant topics; and that I can put my suspicions behind me and trust God to show me if there's something going on. Thank you all for your prayers.
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Posted: Tue Jan 10th, 2006 02:58 am |
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No longer in doubt,
Sounds like some really healthy thinking.  God can be trusted to shed light on darkness, I know from personal experience. I'm really thankful for how you and your husband seem to be headed in a much more positive direction!  Yes, I will keep praying!  thank you for letting us rejoice with you!!!
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Posted: Wed Jan 25th, 2006 08:06 pm |
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I don't really feel that it is my fault my husband looks at porn. I know this was something he has had to deal with since before we married...at least, before we married he told me his Father had these problems. He sounded so ashamed of his father, I never thought he would fall into the same trap.
But I DO feel broken. For the longest time he had me believing that it was my responsibility to keep him sexually satisfied. Now I know that nothing I can do will accomplish that....but remembering all the verbal abuse I endured....I can't believe I actually tolerated that! I can't believe he had me believing that there was something wrong with me for not wanting to be a part of his fantasies!
No...I don't feel guilty anymore. I feel STUPID.
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