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wishfull
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Joined:	Wed May 28th, 2008
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Posted: Fri May 30th, 2008 01:06 am

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I started out as a chlid masturbating inocently at about 7 yrs old maybe. For a period of time till I was about 13-14-- maybe-- it was rather guilt free I guess. At that age I started thinking about sex with a partner and then the fantasies began. I eventualy started buying books ocaisionaly - usualy keeping them for only awhile - like a ritual I would masturbate to some picture Imagining I was with that women and then afterwards I would have so much guilt I would throw it away and burn it like a cleansing ritual. I went on with about the same patern in to my early twenties when I got married. I always beleived that when I got married that the lust would go away and I would stop masturbating ect ect. It did slow down but did not stop. It seemed like everytime I would quit one thing (magazines for example ) something else would replace it, like movies. My wife even would watch one with me ocaisionaly, and then we would have sex early in our marriage but she finaly quit. About three years ago I got on a chat line and was looking thru it ( yahoo) not realy looking for anything bad, and I stumbled on a adult section of it. When I got on it and started veiwing things that I hadnt seen before , I was hooked.

A lot of things have happened since, many things I am not proud of.In any case I am trying to quit now. I have had a few set backs but for the most part I am gradualy walking away from the addiction.

Last edited on Wed Jun 18th, 2008 02:44 am by wishfull

sam
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Posted: Sat May 31st, 2008 12:22 am

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welcome wishfull, i am glad you are here. i can really identify with your struggle of this addiction taking more and more to satisfy your lustful desires. it all started off small with me as well and over time, took more and more until i was in the same boat as you with the chatting. which by far has been the most addictive thing i have experienced. anyway, i wish you well on your journey to sexual addiction freedom. i think you will find this site to be a huge encouragement.
bless you,
sam

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