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genessaretwalker
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Posted: Fri Feb 15th, 2008 11:22 am |
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I have been addicted for several years. I guess I have not looked at it has addiction but just one of those sins noone talks about. But now is has lead to acting out in behaviors that I did not think I was capable of doing. I have in the last several months told myself that I'm going to stop but it only last a few days. Looking for some accountability and pray.
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hans45
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Posted: Fri Feb 15th, 2008 03:11 pm |
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Welcome genessaretwalker,
All of us are here to help one another. Most all of us are going through the same thing you are. You've come to a good place to start recovery. With God, all things are possible. Let us know a little about yourself and you will get encouragement and prayer. God bless you.
Dennis
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rom517mm
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Posted: Fri Feb 15th, 2008 04:11 pm |
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genessaret,
My wife and I were talking recently about how this is the one taboo. We have had a couple of people come forth in our church to talk about how God is healing them from drug and alcohol addiction, but when it comes to sexual sin, how do you talk about that in a church with women who will start wondering, "I wonder if he's been lusting after me?" I'm thankful for forums like this where we can be open and anonymous. Perhaps it will never be appropriate to bring up before the entire congregation unless it's according to the disciplining procedure of Matthew 18:15-17 (http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=matthew%2018:15-17;&version=47;) (sorry, not sure yet how to post links).
As for thinking we're over the addiction, I allowed myself to be fooled for years into thinking that. Right after I'd masturbate I'd swear off of it, and tell myself, "I can't believe I did that; that's it, I'll never do it again." Of course, that was because it was like coming down from a high after taking drugs. Soon, I would slowly start the cycle toward lust all over again. And I'd masturbate, say "that's it," and so on. It has led me to question whether I was ever truly repentant.
I know I need to be "sober and vigilant" as 1 Peter 5:8 says. And I also think of 1 Corinthians 10:12, "Therefore let anyone who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall." It's so easy for me to drop my guard and think that I'm above lusting. Now that I have almost 30 days being free from being controlled by lust, I'm thinking, "Hey, that's pretty good." I probably only had that much time once or twice since my adolescence started over 30 years ago. It's a moment by moment battle for me. I could succumb at any given time. For the past few weeks I've made the choice each time the temptation has come to not give in, and to turn my mind on God and godly things. I pray you will do that too.
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"Since by the one man's trespass, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive the overflow of grace and the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ." (Rom. 5:17)
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Posted: Tue Feb 19th, 2008 02:01 am |
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Thanks for the encouragement. I have been exposed to porn and lust since I can remember. I can remember when I was 5, my father had stacks of playboys I would sneak and look at. But over the years you need more and more intense stimulation. It gets were each episode lust takes a little bit or your soul away. Sin really does lead you down roads you never thought it could.
Taking day by day and pray each day to turn away from the lust .
Blessings
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Posted: Tue Feb 19th, 2008 01:47 pm |
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| Yes, I too went down roads beyond mere "soft" porn, because that was no longer enough. I'm sure no rapist or child molester ever thought years before when he picked up his first picture of a nude woman that he'd end up so depraved. Each time I went further into porn I'd tell myself, "This is it, no further." It all came in little, barely perceptible steps, so that I look back and wonder how it happened. But once I look back and see how far I slid, that helps me to get a better understanding of how deceived I was, and how the devil would long to destroy me, little by little.
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"Since by the one man's trespass, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive the overflow of grace and the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ." (Rom. 5:17)
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