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Posted: Thu Jan 31st, 2008 01:42 am |
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Hello everyone,
I am jack. It was my cat's name. Currently I have been addicted to internet porn for at least 10 years. I am 28. I was first exposed to porn at the age of 10 or 12. Found a bag full of them at my friend's house. During this time my habbit has grown stronger from less than an hour to more than 3 hours depending on the day ofcourse. Pulling all nighters at times for this addiction.
I have rarely during these 10 years attempted to quit. Serious attempts probably totaling 3. When I do try they last for about 30 days. I just figured that it was a mode of dealing with sexual frustration with the least amount of responsibilities. I know the christian way is to get married, but I figured I don't really want that responsibility. I am I just tried since the begining of the year lasted for about 27 days. Then I failed last week. Had my dad hide the computer again and I found the modem today. So i viewed porn and here I am. Time was not a concern for me as I was younger but as I get old I am becoming aware that this addiction is eating a hole in my life, sucking me dry.
That is about as far as I get by myself. I am in Yorktown VA. I would like to have accountability online through this website or email daily if possible. I would also like to meet with someone face to face or in a group that would be ideal. I know this is brief but I would like to be in accountability, with a Christian hopefully with similar struggle patters or someone who is abit a head. I want to live differently, righteously, more purely. It is becomming more and more apparent this will not be easy.
I know I cant do it alone. I need help.
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sam
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Posted: Thu Jan 31st, 2008 09:24 am |
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welcome jack,
you are in the right place to start your recovery from porn addiction. you will be in my prayers.
bless you,
sam
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Paulos
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Posted: Fri Feb 1st, 2008 02:06 pm |
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jack,
You are wise to seek the help of others. Privacy and isolation foster addiction. While an online community may be a first step, even more helpful will be face-to-face relationships.
Here's a link to Sex Addicts Anonymous meetings near you: http://saa-recovery.org/mlist26.htm#USA_Virginia.
Here's for Sexaholics Anonymous: http://www.sa.org/top/United%20States%20of%20America/Virginia/.
You have learned by experience that porn demands much and gives back nothing. Here are two lines from scripture for you to memorize and meditate on to see this activity from God's perspective.
"One who keeps company with harlots squanders his substance" (Proverbs 29:3b).
"Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them" (Ephesians 5:11).
Finally, some hope: For those in Christ, "sin will have no dominion over you" (Romans 6:14).
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guitarist63
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Posted: Fri Feb 1st, 2008 08:49 pm |
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Welcome Jack, there's plenty of help here and just reading old posts can help a lot although it might be an idea to ration the reading in order to digest some of the comments better.
A revelation for me in the past week that appears to be a pivotal point in my struggle with this sin, is a realization that I have become legalistic about my efforts to stop. Instead of focusing on the problem, I should be focussing on God and at the same time, submitting my heart for a total makeover.
I am at a cross-roads, I believe. Decision time.
Last edited on Fri Feb 1st, 2008 08:50 pm by guitarist63
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Posted: Mon Feb 4th, 2008 02:44 pm |
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Jack,
I am a 56 year old man who was addicted to pornography for most of 30 years. God set me free from this addiction. I keep a prayer journal and looking back, my battle for freedom from my addiction dominated my prayers for years. I went to counseling twice, attempted Celebrate Recovery, Pure Freedom, and the battle went on. From start to finish, with five years of freedom and then back into pornography and finally set free over 30 years!
It is difficult to contemplate the waste and destruction this evil brought into my life.
And I can tell you this, there is no magic formula for success. But the single most important part of winning this battle is God. I know that sounds elusive. What does that mean? How does God work in this? What can I expect? How does it work?
No one can give you a definitive answer. Not here. Not anywhere. God's ways are not our ways. We want it laid out for us.....seven steps to a porn free life!
I'm no expert, but I can tell you this, I was on my face, flat out on the floor begging for help before help came. You are doing well to fight the good fight now. Left alone pornography addiction will eat your life like cancer.
Gob bless you in the fight to save your life.
Henny
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