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blueeyesman
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Posted: Sat Oct 20th, 2007 06:03 am

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Hi my name is Matthew, I am a believer in Christ.

My issues are

ornography, Lust, Fear, Anger, Depression.

I am not doing to good. I'm back on the internet with no filter or anything.

I can;'t stay on the internet long because, I always draw to bad things.

I got a big problem with a femaled interested in me and not just ready. It's internet dating and she lives outside the USA.

I have a accountibility partner, which doesn't help me much. I'm so bad being accoutible I can't even get past two clean days. I have alot of friends on yahoo

messenger. They know my time is limited and wont be online forever.

I was molested twice in my life. First time when I was 4 or 5 at a department

store in Miami, in the bathroom. It affected me so bad I did not goto to a public

bathroom in school until middle school or highschoool. I was molested again

when I was 13 or 14 by friend of the family. It was never sex but bad enough to have Fantasies over it. It haoppen more than 10 times.

I have a counsler and support groups to help me.

I'm not getting delivered because I try to work out my sins in the flesh and not

hand it over to Christ. I'm in Denail and I've had so many Christians use me that I

just dont care, sometimes. But tonight it's gonna change.

Can anyone tell me of a good internet filter. You pay per month. Or a one

time charge for a filter.

I forgot to mention I have been addicted to Pornography for 26 years.

End of Statement,

Thanks for listening,

Matthew

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Posted: Sat Oct 20th, 2007 10:51 am

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Welcome Matthew. Thanks for your honesty in giving such a moving account of your life. I'm glad to read that you have recognized that you can't work out how to get free without handing it over to Christ. That is an important step along the way to complete healing. I will pray for you. I pray you will have God's peace, patience, God's strength to overcome this.

Last edited on Sat Oct 20th, 2007 10:57 am by guitarist63

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Posted: Mon Oct 22nd, 2007 04:05 am

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Welcome, Blueeyesman.

You can get filter recommendations in another thread on this forum.
Click on http://www.blazinggrace.org/forums/view_topic.php?id=149&forum_id=6&jump_to=9866#p9866.

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Posted: Wed Oct 31st, 2007 02:01 am

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Hi Matthew, how did you manage at North Carolina church retreat? Prayed. It's now several days since you were due back Sunday about 3.00 p.m.

Last edited on Wed Oct 31st, 2007 02:02 am by guitarist63

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