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Posted: Wed Jul 30th, 2008 12:23 pm |
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That was real good, CB. Thanks, and God Bless!
I did alright until yesterday, when I indulged twice to MB'ing with mental images. After much guilt and misery, my spirit was lifted when I heard a teacher whose teachings we own speak a message about faith and the victory it brings and so on. Of course, I already knew all those things, but it didn't quite hit me til yesterday. We just have to believe.
And today, I stumbled. I was on the net doing normal things when I saw and ad that caught my attention. It was advertising some model showcase thing. But confounded curiosity got the better of me, coupled with a lie... "I'm not gonna stare at them, I'm just curious as to know what its all about". So I pursued it, but stopped shortly. Unfortunately, the damage was done. The lustful flesh got all stirred up, and a little later I began playing with the images in my mind, and I actually began to mess around with the nether regions, until I caught myself and thought "How could you do this when you were so ready to give it up yesterday?". So I stopped there, and here I am.
You got walked in on anonmsn? I'm sorry about your mother, what is her sickness?
I would strongly recommend that you find someone you can be accountable to. Sure, being anonymously accountable on the internet is great, but nothing beats face-to-face confession. Remember what James said in James 5:16...
Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. (New Living Translation)
In fact, thats something I need to do more often too.
Last edited on Wed Jul 30th, 2008 12:24 pm by Guitarist_John
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Posted: Thu Jul 31st, 2008 02:59 pm |
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I think back and remember how I acted out for endless hours everyday. It's crazy! Doing well, sober since 7/26/08 NO P and M. Five whole days everyone  I am struggling in the area of confidence and I feel like the devil is tapping into my weaknesses (as communicated by my wife). Praying on that and asking for every ones assistance to do the same for me. God Bless!
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Posted: Thu Jul 31st, 2008 08:26 pm |
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I'm making progress. Just saw few images of porn when trying to test some internet filter. I can bypass 90% of porn filter but have found one that I cannot bypass. So nearly no porn since 3 days but some lust in my heart.
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Hi Everyone,
Back to give a progress report. Up until Tuesday, I have been p&m free for two months. I fell to p&m on Tuesday, July 29 and binged for the next 28 hours. Felt terrible. What caused this was that I started lusting with my eyes at my next door neighbor. I was outside mowing the lawn when she went to her mail box. She had on provocative clothing. Well, not only did I look, I kept on looking. I could not get her out of my mind. As a result, I gave into temptation. Since then, I have repented of this sin and received forgiveness. Now, I am more determined than ever. Now, I know not to keep looking at something that may cause me to go back. I believe and confess that I am free from this bondage through Jesus Christ! My goal is total freedom. In this instance, I should have turned my eyes away from her when I initially saw her. Believe me, I will keep my eyes pure from here on, through Jesus. Please keep me in your prayers and I will continue to pray for all of you. Today, had a chance to look upon another woman whoo dressed provocative, By His Grace, I was able to resist the temptaton. Thank God for this forum.
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Posted: Fri Aug 1st, 2008 01:17 pm |
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Well, after few day of progress, I have failed again. Just saw porn for few minutes and did M. I was not worth of it. I don't even understand why I failed. God is so good with me, give me many blessings... I see not other reason that the flesh... I know that He love me deeply... and I know that I will win this battle by the power of His love.
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1959 wrote: Hi Everyone,
Back to give a progress report. Up until Tuesday, I have been p&m free for two months. I fell to p&m on Tuesday, July 29 and binged for the next 28 hours. Felt terrible. What caused this was that I started lusting with my eyes at my next door neighbor. I was outside mowing the lawn when she went to her mail box. She had on provocative clothing. Well, not only did I look, I kept on looking. I could not get her out of my mind. As a result, I gave into temptation. Since then, I have repented of this sin and received forgiveness. Now, I am more determined than ever. Now, I know not to keep looking at something that may cause me to go back. I believe and confess that I am free from this bondage through Jesus Christ! My goal is total freedom. In this instance, I should have turned my eyes away from her when I initially saw her. Believe me, I will keep my eyes pure from here on, through Jesus. Please keep me in your prayers and I will continue to pray for all of you. Today, had a chance to look upon another woman whoo dressed provocative, By His Grace, I was able to resist the temptaton. Thank God for this forum.
I had a youth pastor one time that would always say, "If you give the devil an inch, he'll take you a mile." We all have to admit, that lust is THE biggest, easiest-to-fall-into-sin, temptation that we as men, and a lot of the women on this board struggle with; that our flesh, and satan in the spiritual realm, WANT us to give in to this temptation; and that in our overly sexualized society, we are going to have ample opportunities to give in to this temptation. Now I truly believe that one can be completely free from this bondage. God has delivered me from this crap, and I give Him 100% of the credit. Because I tried (and failed), and tried (and failed), and tried (and failed) to beat it on my own. And it wasn't until I realized that this thing was way too big for me to handle, that I was able to sincerely say, "God, I cannot do this anymore. I need You." And when that was my heart, God said, "OK, he knows that he can't do it anymore, and he needs Me. Let's get to work." And I can only describe the freedom I have as a complete miracle.
But I'm not going to be so arrogant as to think that I can't ever fall back into this sin. It's by God's grace, and my dependance on Him that I'm free from this bondage. And it's by God's grace, and my dependance on Him that I walk in freedom.
So what happens when you are tempted. Because let's face it, we live in a sinful world, we have a sinful flesh, and there are sinful spiritual beings that are trying to tempt us. Well, until we die, or Jesus comes back to get us, we're going to live in this world, so we need to be able to face the temptations as they come. We need to understand that sin STARTS in the mind. That's why Jesus told us that to even look at a woman lustfully is to commit adultery with her in your heart. If sin STARTS in the mind, it needs to be STOPPED in the mind. Two things that I regularly do, is bind the spirit of lust (because temptation can be initiated in the spiritual realm), and I take control of my thinking (because temptation can be initiated by your own sinful flesh). If you take control of your thinking, you'll never give the devil an inch.
Luke 9:1 - When Jesus had called the Twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons . . .
2 Corinthians 10:5 - We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
CB!
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Posted: Fri Aug 1st, 2008 04:15 pm |
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CB,
I totally agree with you! It is by His power, not our own that we can overcome lust or anything that is contray to the things of God.
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Posted: Fri Aug 1st, 2008 04:23 pm |
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Failed again, just few minutes... porn is not worth to watch...
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Posted: Fri Aug 1st, 2008 04:37 pm |
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Free_Dove,
I know you may feel discouraged right now. Repent, ask Jesus for forgiveness and start new. A few days ago, I fell myself, so I can relate. Something CB said in one recent post is that we need to come closer to the Lord. I am finding out when we start building a relationship with Him, it make a world of difference. Intimacy with Jesus is the key. Despite what happened to me ( and I caused it), I am pursuing Jesus with a passion. Temptation will always be here. But through Jesus, we can overcome temptations. I pray that you will be encouraged to continue to seek Jesus. I am praying for you.
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Posted: Fri Aug 1st, 2008 07:53 pm |
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Thanks 1959 for your kind reply. I have found an other firewall with a filter that I cannot bypass and which is more performant than the other I mentionned earlier. This filter stop event the site with made me fell. So it is a good news.
Yes I must pursue my relationship with Jesus, this is the only answer.
Blessing and thanks for prayers!
Free_dove
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Posted: Fri Aug 1st, 2008 08:22 pm |
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I haven't done well today. I gave in and masturbated today.  Please pray for me. I believe that God hears prayer. I can't do this without Him. It's by His power and not mine that I'll have to overcome. God bless.
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Welcome, faith_inthedarkness. A prayer for you to be granted the strength to overcome the m and walk in the way God has prepared for you. I have read what you have suffered and am lost for words. I pray you'll find support here, especially from ladies who have like you suffered abuse and like you have the desire to get free.
I've got very little to say today about myself except it's a day free of this, thanks to God's help. Have had a few mind battles today where temptations have popped up and I have immediately rebuked those thoughts. Renewing of the mind is something on my mind.
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Posted: Sat Aug 2nd, 2008 05:16 pm |
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I had to configure my porn filter, and unfortunately I watched porn because I had the password. Now the filter is ok. A friend have the password. I have no acces to porn anymore.
A filter is a good help but it is not the ultimate solution. A radical change of heart done by God Himself is the ultimate solution.
I'm an addict. I'm a poor sinner. My hope now is that this nightmare is really over. My hope is a new beginning.
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Posted: Sat Aug 2nd, 2008 05:45 pm |
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In addition to a change of heart - we also need a right spirit.
See post in General Discussions - A Right Spirit.
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Posted: Sat Aug 2nd, 2008 09:55 pm |
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I feel that there are so many explanations. Does that help? How is it with you guys? Does it help you if you get an explanation about `HOW IT IS`?
What helps you to grow?
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Posted: Sat Aug 2nd, 2008 10:52 pm |
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Man wrote: What helps you to grow?
Prayer. Meditation. Journaling. Working the steps. Serious introspection in counseling. Honesty with others. Reading and reflecting on others' stories. Staying connected with other people. Doing positive things. Exercise. Handling stress in healthy ways. Surrendering and letting go. Learning to treat myself and others with gentle compassion.
That's a quick list for me. What helps you to grow?
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Posted: Sat Aug 2nd, 2008 11:31 pm |
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I am having more trouble with my mind than anything else at the moment. Thoughts come from nowhere and I have to take them in prayer to God straight away to reject them.
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Posted: Sun Aug 3rd, 2008 05:06 pm |
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Posted: Sun Aug 3rd, 2008 07:01 pm |
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That's great to hear, Free Dove. Let's keep going and not looking back.
I am also free today. It's not easy.
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TimM wrote: Man wrote: What helps you to grow?
Prayer. Meditation. Journaling. Working the steps. Serious introspection in counseling. Honesty with others. Reading and reflecting on others' stories. Staying connected with other people. Doing positive things. Exercise. Handling stress in healthy ways. Surrendering and letting go. Learning to treat myself and others with gentle compassion.
That's a quick list for me. What helps you to grow?
Tim M.
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